Enduring Everest is a book I’ve wanted to write for some time now. So I set off to write. Nothing happened until I discovered the blogging world.
I started blogging a few years ago. I was never any good at it. I didn’t really understand how to do it. I’m not an expert by any standard. I’ve spent some time reading other’s blogs. It is helping. I’ll get better the more I do it.
Blogging is helping me structure my thoughts. It’s helping me focus. My thoughts are starting to flow through my fingers. My entire body is engaged. I used to say, get my thoughts down on paper. I don’t say that anymore. I’m not sure what we say today. But at least I’m putting my thoughts somewhere.
I am actively engaged in the endeavor. I’m committed to it. It’s a journey. It will be a slow process. I must enure the challenges. I’ve planned for this trip. Writing has begun. It’s finally time to start writing. To make this writing trek, I’ve had to pack some climbing tools.
A shout out to grammarly.com for helping with my grammar. Also, thank Steve Jobs for creating my computer of choice. or did the computer choose me? Sorry I had to say that. Anyways. apple.com is a great site. Oops, I just thought out loud. Sorry, that happens now and again. Hopefully, you’ll still read my posts and buy the book anyway. Well at least have coffee with me. We can talk about it over a sip of happiness. That might be the only thing we could agree on.
No shout out to someone’s favorite coffee brand/local shop/money-making company for investors. I can’t think around noise and certain smells. Sorry folks in Seattle. I don’t have enough money to buy coffee on a writer’s budget anyway. Enough about coffee.
Now I’m happy to say that a comfortable chair makes the writing process enjoyable. It is good for writing in, eating in, and sleeping in. A huge acknowledgment of the company known as LazyBoy.
I can’t forget the nice people at wordpress.com. This is my kind of site. They don’t charge me anything to use it.
Now onto the subject matter.
I see writing this book as an expedition. It seems way too hard to complete. Summiting the mountain of all mountains is no easy undertaking.
Summiting and writing a book is in no way physically comparable. However, the two have a better chance of being twins mentally. At least that is what I think! For whatever that’s worth.
The late great climber, George Mallory said he wanted to climb Mt. Everest because it was there.
Everest is the tallest mountain known to man. It stands at 29,029 ft to us Americans. To the rest of the world, it is 8,848 m tall. Why focus on Mt. Everest alone? Well, because it’s there. There are more peaks around the world to climb. I could talk about all other mountains under 29,000 ft. But why? I agree with Mallory. It’s there. I wonder if he’d say the same about books. Why write another one? Well because I want too.
I see Everest as a metaphor for my life. I struggle with difficulties every day. I face challenges. You do too. Some are bigger than others. Still, they are there. Each of us face struggles on a regular basis. You too may see them as mountains to climb.
The biggest mountain in my life has been mental illness. It is my Mt. Everest. (I talk about it in other posts). At this time in my life, I feel that I can talk about it. I must share. I have lived within the padded walls in my head too long. I feared what others would think of me if they knew. I have accepted that it is part of me. Mental illness has infiltrated my makeup as a person. Not sure who I’d be if it wasn’t there.
I have suffered from mental illness most of my life. Only a few years ago did I get the proper diagnosis and medication to help me live. I will never summit the mental mountain. Still, I don’t give up the dream of conquering it. Maybe I’m wanting to say conquering what I feel inside. Conquering me. I’ve traveled a long path already. I still have a long way to go. You do too.
You struggle. You want to give up. You are standing on the edge of your mountain. You want to jump. Something tells you to hang on. You yell help. No one hears you. You cry out. No reply. You stand there alone. You want someone to come rescue you. While you stand there holding on you hear those voices from the past. They seem so real. They are familiar. They seem to tell you to let go. Life would be better without you. They judge you. They’re loud. You can’t even hear yourself think.
Don’t judge your thoughts. Don’t judge yourself. It’s not anyone’s fault you are where you are. Stop and breathe. It may hurt. It won’t hurt for long. Calm your breathing. Listen to its rhythm. Find the rhythm of your heartbeat. Wait for it. Wait for it. It’s quiet. You can hear yourself breathing. Your breathing is keeping in time with the beat. However, as quick as the moment it’s gone. Don’t give up. Keep practicing. Trust me, it will eventually help.
Stop panicking. Slow your breathing. Clear your thoughts. Focus on the moment. Feel the mountain with your hands. Feel with your fingertips. It’s rough. It’s cold. Feel the edge under your feet. Move your toes. Feel. Lean back against the mountain. Decide what to do in that moment. Then decide to find help. Don’t wait for it to show up. Instead, figure out a way up or down.
I want to encourage you to endure your Everest. Endurance means to press on. Never quit. I found this truth in the Bible. It says, Whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. When your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. When your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything – James 1:2-4. Trouble will find you. Search for joy in spite of it. Build your faith. Endurance is getting you through it. You will find strength. You will find help.
Look at that summit in your life. Decide to face it. Prepare to ascend it. Endure Everest. Start your climb. It will be a lot of hard work. Days you will want to quit. There will days you will quit. Days you will want to die. You find yourself saying, I just can’t do this anymore. Guess what – you can’t. Sorry.
You cannot do it alone. No one climbs alone. It’s time to ask for help. Make that decision today. Don’t wait. The choice is yours.
Say, I’m not going to die today. I am strong. The summit awaits.
I am talking from experience. I had to ask for help. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I decided to find help. I did find it. However, I am still climbing my Everest. I’m not climbing alone (read another of my posts My Expedition Team).
Others around you are there to help. I’m here to help you climb your mountain! You don’t have to Endure your Everest alone.
Simply said – Endure Everest!